Wow, my 39th Birthday, what a ride. I had the flu the night before, so I was feeling a little sick today. I was fine until my son Coye just kept fighting with me all day long. I got so sick and tired of it and I kind of freaked out!!!! I think that it should have been my special day.
I was trying to deal with it. I just figured out that I don't like my Birthday! I don't like getting older. I just want to be young and beautiful!
Every Birthday reminds me of all the failures I have. I feel like I have not measured up to everyone else. I am so afraid of the failures and sometimes I think that holds me back.
I want to succeed and flourish with my life and myself. I miss who I use to be. I am so sad!
I will be fine. I just want to scream. I am not very happy today. I hate it and the only thing I have to look forward to is 40!
- love ya!!!!!