Friends Forever

I love you my friend! You mean everything to me. I know you are going through a very difficult time and I am here for you. I know you can fix your tattered wings fixed and make them fly again. I know you can get your spirit back, see you don't need to find yourself because she is still there; you just need to bring her out. Take this opportunity to do it for yourself. I will walk through the fires of hell with you; maybe even drive off a cliff! I love you so much and your pain I want to take from you so badly. Don't keep everything inside, share with me and together we can over come anything. Phone calls and email chats are definately not enough, but I will take what I can get. I love you so much and you are in my prayers.

love Tammy

How do we figure it out??????/

When does life get so bad and/or crazy that we cannot control it anymore.. When are our feelings more important then those of other peoples. How do we figure out a balance between making ourselves happy or satisfied and keeping those we love happy and satisfied. I wish there was some kind of guide so we can keep ourselves in check....... I want to know when does life get so hard that some people can't take it anymore, that they change in the blink of an eye, that they go against everything that has ever been important? Who are we to judge each other until we walk in anothers shoes. How do we decide what is right or wrong. Who are we to tell others what to do and what should make them happy... How do we go through our lives and keep ourselves happy and content without taking from another. How do we keep from not dying inside without taking from someone else. How do we make the world a better place and leave it better then when we came in. I wish I knew, I wish I could figure it all out.

love ya
Tammy

Baseball Madness!!!!

So here's the deal. I am so irritated about the baseball team. The coach has a haircut policy and all the kids have to have a short haircut. I mean really we aren't living in 1955 for heck sakes. David asked the coaches about it and the coach is like "oh ya, they need haircuts" pisses me off.

David wanted the boys to get haircuts for awhile and so im sure he is happy. The boys don't like their hair short. I don't think it's fair that they can't be individuals. I hate the typical "missionary" cut for heck sakes.

So I will post the pictures I took of the boys so you can see the difference that 24 hours make. Holy Moly.

I love baseball but I really don't like the boys club that comes with it. The funny thing is that every single year the men act like they rule the roost but the women are the ones doing all the paperwork and running the fundraisers and getting most everything done. I am not even talking about the coaches, I mean they really do a great job with the boys. I just don't like people telling me what we should do with my family.

I am trying to instill values into my boys that are individual, don't necessarily go with the grain. Be who you are. Then we get to highschool ball and it all changes.

Oh well can't do anything about it except for blog. HEE HEE

Love ya!!!!!!!

West Jordan Baseball Baby!!!

Coye Ballard

Cody Ballard

Cody (right) and Coye (left)

Cody and Coye made the West Jordan High School 9th grade Baseball Team. We are so proud of them and they are so excited. They were pretty confident but I was nervous.

I thought it would be fun to post some pictures of them in their uniforms. I love a "man" in a "uniform", don't you? They are so cute. They are growing up way to fast and I am freaking out! I love them and when I think of them, I remember them as five not almost fifteen.

Well we have our first Tournament in St. George next weekend. I will blog about it and let everyone know how it goes.

Love ya

My great self

So, I decided to post something today. Sunday nights i seem to get really energized. I enjoy Sunday evenings because I love getting ready for the week. I then have a hard time sleeping because my mind goes 1 million miles a minute.

I have been in a really negative funk. This is very unlike me. I know that is a direct attack from Satan. He is a meanie you know. I felt like a loser and a failure and all that stuff. I know those things are not true.

I am a winner and a positive person. I usally look on the bright side of things which is something I really like about myself.

That is not what I want to talk about today. I want to talk about faith and belief.

I know that if I have faith in Heavenly Father and belief in myself, then I can acheive all of my dreams and goals. My parents didn't do this and so I saw them fail time and time again. My dad did understand a piece of this because he tried to instill a dream in me. The problem with him, was he would dream and not do anything about it. I use to be like this until The Secret came into my life. I am still trying to learn how to use it and make it work. For me I know that Heavenly Father makes all things possible. I know that we can achieve everything as long as we are more positive then negative. I feel that we need to see the good and not focus on the bad so much. I know that is not an easy feet. I have a family member in my life that is really difficult for me as well. I want to make sure I am positive so I am going to type an affirmation for myself and if you want to use it for yourself, please feel free to go ahead and use it. I want to achieve a world where Women know how wonderful and powerful they really are.

AFFIRMATION TO MYSELF

I am a wonderful, confident and successful Woman.

I am capable of doing anything I set my mind too!

My dreams are so important to me and I always get what I want.

I live life with a full heart and an open mind.

I see the good in everyone, including myself.

Goodness flows through me and to me. I am a magnet of all good things

I am a money magnet. Money just shows up from everywhere.

My troubles are small and my joys are big.

I am the true sense of success and I know happiness and bliss

I love with my full soul and am living my life with gratitude.

I love my Heavenly Father and am thankful for him each day.

People are drawn to me and I am drawn to all good people as well

I love you

My Birthday!

Wow, my 39th Birthday, what a ride. I had the flu the night before, so I was feeling a little sick today. I was fine until my son Coye just kept fighting with me all day long. I got so sick and tired of it and I kind of freaked out!!!! I think that it should have been my special day.

I was trying to deal with it. I just figured out that I don't like my Birthday! I don't like getting older. I just want to be young and beautiful!

Every Birthday reminds me of all the failures I have. I feel like I have not measured up to everyone else. I am so afraid of the failures and sometimes I think that holds me back.

I want to succeed and flourish with my life and myself. I miss who I use to be. I am so sad!

I will be fine. I just want to scream. I am not very happy today. I hate it and the only thing I have to look forward to is 40!

• love ya!!!!!