Sunday, April 5, 2009

My Mom

So my Mom has been put in the hospital for the second time in one week. She has a disease called COPD, it is a certain kind of enphazema. This disease is rally bad. She is so addicted to smoking and has been since she was fourteen years old. She has tried to quite over and over again. She just cannot kick it. She lives in a smoke enfested house. She lives with my sister and brother-in-law who take care of her.... well im not sure that is what you call it. She sits in the basement all day long smokes and colors. I am sorry, but she doesn't even comb her hair and doesn't take a bath very often. She cooks dinner for them everynight.

Now this is a lady that can't move and breath, her fingers cramp up because she doesn't have enough oxygen. She takes like 6 Loratabs a day. This is just to get through it. I fill so badly for her. I want her to take responsibility for herself but she is older and they didn't know they were going to be addicted but they are. People are dying because of this disgusting habit and it saddens me to no end.

My father already died because of this same disease and I hate it. Now, my sisters and I are losing our Mother to the same disease. I want someone to be held accountable and I want it now. Now I understand everyone is accountable for themselves and I do understand that, but I can remember a Mother that would play with us, color with us, loved children to no end, she would laugh and she loved being a mother. Her only goal was to be a Mother and because of this horrible habit, she cannot be a good Grandmother. She just doesn't have it in her.

I am done being mad at her. I am done being quiet about this. I dont want another person to be hurt by such incompetence by companies or whoever is responsible.

This habit is not only bad for the person and families of the smokers but it is bad for the environment also. Im done and I hate it.

I want justice and I want it now. The only problem is it won't bring my father back and it won't keep my Mother here. I just know, im mad as hell and I want my Mom back.

I need to focus on making good changes and not focusing on the bad that comes from this but, my Mom turned blue in the emergency room today and it scared the "hell" out of me.

Love Tammy Ballard

1 comment:

  1. I'm very sad to read this, its hits home for me, my mom will eventually get that bad also, and I feel the same way you do about smoking, IT SUCKS, I wish there where no such thing. I'm sorry you are going through this, I don't know if they realize how bad it hurts the people around them not just physically but emotionally, and I think that the emotionally is even worse.If you need anybody to talk to I'm here for you. I love you! And I love your Mom too!